Last week, August 4^th, 2023, I went for a check-up in the hospital where, seven months ago my much loved wife died. For the second time in my life, a surgeon who examined me told me I had cancer. I had come through the first with radiotherapy, chemotherapy and an operation, some 14 years ago. Now the verdict has fallen again.

What does a Christian do in times like these? Having thanked God through my tears for giving me such a wonderful wife and the mother of our children, though the grief was uniquely overpowering at times, as I now face another ordeal, I remain thankful that whatever this cancer may involve for me, the God who loves me will be beside me day by day as my ever-present helper.

What a blessing to be a believer in Jesus in times like these, when suffering pain, experiencing loss and facing the shadow of death! What wondrous peace to know, on the basis of Jesus’ words which I fully believe to be trustworthy, that there is an eternal life of glory awaiting me where I shall see both my beloved Saviour and my dear wife!

I do not know what treatment, what pain, what distresses may lie before me, but I know that the God who loves me has promised never to leave me nor forsake me. I wish for all my readers the same confidence whatever you may be going through. God’s truth, his love and his wisdom may be fully trusted. This is the way to know peace in the midst of whatever trial you may have to undergo.

In God’s heaven, he promises, “there will be no more death, neither sorrow nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain” (Revelation 21.4). The most important of our existential questions is – how can we be prepared for death and the life beyond? For many years I have known the answer and sought to share it with others: as I face the probable reality, the answer holds true. 

Why, then, does God allow such suffering? The full answer is long, but here are some elements. God uses our trials as a way of getting through to us, reminding us of our weakness and our need of him, encouraging us to turn to him with a better attitude, to find comfort and help in him. Sadly, many don’t have the right attitude. Each of us should reflect on how we should react. To rebel is unhelpful; to trust is better.

As for me, God is granting me an opportunity to show him that I will faithfully love him and follow Jesus whatever suffering may be involved. A trial tests the reality of one’s faith. It is a way through which I can prove my commitment to him whatever the cost. The biblical principle can be found in Deuteronomy 8.2: “You shall remember the whole way the Lord your God has led you these forty years in the wilderness, that he might humble you, testing you, to know what is in your heart, whether you would keep his commandments or not”. 

As I look back, I see how God has helped me; as I look forward, I trust he will help me still.

Clive Every-Clayton